A little bit of distance. Maybe that’s what I need. To forgive those that hurt me, intentionally or not, to let go of those I care for since time is not in our favor this once, to relive myself of lingering agony and pain. To understand why my tears flow, even at four in the evening and to learn that sometimes it’s better to be alone.
The absolute numbness that is taking over, has me baffled. I can’t seem to feel those butterflies and knots and neither the happiness or motivation, just plain and excruciating emptiness.
Until later

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  1. irtfyblog says:

    I know that emptiness all too well. – sometimes it takes another shot of reality to shock your system back into the correct state where you feel again.

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    1. I wonder what that will be for me. As of now, I can’t make head or tail of my thoughts nor feelings

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      1. irtfyblog says:

        I’m right there with you. For some reason my thoughts and feelings have an ebb and flow that are difficult to understand. Currently, I feel like I’m not able to think clearly and I have no emotions other than just a void that can’t be filled.

        I don’t know if it matters much, but I’ve said a prayer for you right this moment and I know God will answer it.

        You’re a strong young woman. Hold your head up and take a few deep breaths. Enjoy the day that you have and smile. Then grab a pen and paper and write down 25 things your thankful for. Make that a priority every day. 🙂

        You’re beautiful. You’re strong. You’re courageous!
        You WILL get beyond this. 😉

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      2. I completely understand.
        Thank you so much, that means a lot. I’ll try my best to keep up.
        Wish the same for you, we’ll get beyond it together.

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      3. Thank you, this is genuinely very helpful.

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