I don’t know what love feels like anymore.
I don’t know what it feels like to look into someone’s eyes and see the entire universe.
I don’t remember what it feels like to have someone’s warm hands twirled up in my ice cold soul.

I… I just don’t know anymore.

It’s so empty and lonely and all I really wanna do is hold someone and never let go while I feel them wanting to be in my arms and I bury my head deep into them while they cradle me into believing that their heartbeat is my only survival.

I want to watch them light up when they look at me the same way a five year old child lights up when you hand them their favourite toy and I want them to treasure me the same way, for once.
I want to feel that that soft smile on their lips while they’re pressed against mine the same way the sun kisses the ocean every evening. And, hold me in their arms through the ice cold night.

I want them to come home to me and hold me tight as I watch them fall asleep on my arms while I play with their hair.

But, I don’t want to be in love just because I can’t remember how it feels anymore.
It doesn’t work like that.

This is a guest post by Alyssa Joseph from Bangalore, India.