As I write this, I am sitting in the computer class during French lesson. I am still wet from this morning’s rain, have a mild headache and am utterly groggy.
This is normal.
Everyone here is multilingual. I have found myself in a situation where people were talking about their favorite German words in dutch, while ordering food in Spanish while they were actually French speakers and were simultaneously talking to me in English.
This is also normal.
This is exactly why I used to tell people that normal has no definition. I’ve been very inspired lately but I can’t quite seem to get it together, I also think I need at least twelve hours of sleep to function here. My sleep schedule from India would get me in some royal trouble here.
You’d expect most people on an exchange to become more, “out there” and “loud” but not me. I have become calmer than ever. Back in India, I believed that it was my identity to be confident and to participate in as many things as possible. My awards were what rebuilt my faith in me.
Now that I’m not competing anymore, I’m trying to see what lies below that layer. I’m learning and seeing so many new things but at the same time it’s all subconscious learning. I’m not conscious of any of it sinking in.
While I’m not the biggest fan of sports myself, I like the system and arrangements for sports in the school. I wonder if only we had had these since we were children, perhaps even the book worms and painters would start to enjoy being outdoors a little more.
I have also realized that nothing gets me happier than inspiring other people. I think that’s what I want to do. I gave a presentation in religion class this week based on the book “into the wild” and what I take from it and my believes about humans. It is easily one of the things I have been wanting to do in school. I think it was pretty great and my teacher said I did a good job too. So. Yay.
I’m looking forward to everything this year has for me. I don’t want to say goodbye to 2016, regardless of the many memes I see, it has been one amazing year for me.